Feeling sad every new cycle..

Hi everyone..

I just wanted to come here and express my feelings.. it just every time i start a new cycle i got so sad and cry a lot. I have a miscarriage back on august and I think since that im not the same and my obgyn told my hubby and i we could try again right away and we did but still 3 months and a half later and nothing still.. I just wish everything were different, every cd1 i got so sad and my hubby probably is tired about this.. i just want to be a mom so bad. Any advice how to feel better on this world of ttc baby #1 😪