IVF to avoid genetic mutations….

I am a Christian. I know that every situation is different. I look at other women in my situation without judgement. I look at women with fertility issues knowing that they are doing what is needed to have a baby….. so why am I so unsure what path to take myself?

I have a NF1 and BRCA1 mutation. The NF1 can cause some learning delays and other issues but the one that affects me the most is all the small tumors that grow on the skin. Luckily it isn’t horrible yet but it does get worse with age. The BRCA1 gene puts you at a higher risk of several cancers. I chose the have a preventative mastectomy hoping to give me more time on this earth.

I had my first son naturally. I was told about IVF but felt it was wrong. I was able to get pregnant on my own and didn’t want to throw an egg, a baby , a whatever out just because of these mutations. It made me feel like I’d be playing God.

I had my son and I know he has the NF1. I feel guilty sometimes. Well now I’m ready for my second and I’ve been having issues with my cycle. I’m in the process of getting tested for PCOS. I keep wondering if I have a serious issue and need IVF to get pregnant if I should do the testing for just say whatever and leave it to chance. Or should I just ho with the IVF route altogether and see about having an unaffected child. I have guilt either way. I don’t want God to be upset with me.