Who should be mad?

So my partner boyfriend baby daddy, whatever the guy is. Well he had planned on working a long day today taking care of someone else’s horses right? Building homes for them in the barn all this and that shit right? Well great, wonderful, awesome. Now my child’s father lies straight to my face about damn near everything. Wanna know why? He can build a crib, he can take care of everyone else besides me and his own kid. He never built no crib, he doesn’t do stuff for us like that. No time either. None. I’ve become very resentful. It’s almost toxic because after he says something he did for someone else, I come back with what did you do that for? They pay you? Of course they did. I stay home with my 18 month old while he doesn’t give me any money either. And if he decides to give me money I have to tell him what it’s for this and that. Not like it’s a lot of money either but he’s all up in my shit wanting to know what I need $50 for. Like who cares? What if my broke lazy ass wanted to order him a Christmas present or something? Needless to say he all of a sudden don’t have a gaming addiction and can’t have self control at work. Now when he’s around me and his own child, he don’t give a fuck. He doesn’t lay him down for a nap bc the dad ain’t tired, he don’t wanna give him a bath, he don’t want to do shit with our child. I feel bad as fuck for my baby. I’m not sure what to even do at this point bc even if I asked for an hour to myself at whatever o clock he gets home from work, he still sits there with his headphones in not able to even hear the baby. Not watching. Not doing shit. I almost feel in my soul its neglect on his end. Why sure I can leave of course pack up my kid and go right? Well my kid will eventually be back without me. Then what? Then who’s going to pay attention and love on him? Or his dad will just get mad and yell at him. He loves his dad but he don’t spend time with my kid. It’s just really sad tbh with you all. His dad don’t see an issue with it either. Which is even more fucked up. Men wonder why there some bitter baby mommas right but this shit he’s doing while I’m still in the home. How am I supposed to move on but trust my son here? He’s only 18 months old, he don’t know much, still learning every single day.

Mind you the other day my son’s father went to this Verizon store spent $90 on a block and cord for his phone. Well he got home and realized it wasn’t the one he wanted so he ordered us both one which ended up being $50 for 2 blocks. Well he wanted to return the expensive shit back and come to find out my son threw it in the trash. Tell me why this guy says I did it? Then took my only $100 I had to take care of it? What? He gets mad if I clean up and he gets mad if I fucking don’t? What is wrong with this god damn cat? I bust my ass for free, barely have any money and the money I did get, he wants to take. Do y’all know how much childcare is? His ass needs to be paying me instead of taking from me. I don’t have money for day care and before anyone says shit, the day care situation payments from the state, you have to start the job first. So how am I gonna start a job without having childcare? What in the actual fuck man.

Not gonna go back to edit but I’m saying he has self control around other people he don’t want to be lost in his phone for.

Why am I still with him? I thought I answered this already. I’m currently unemployed, no baby sitter, no way to get a free babysitter until I start the job then I can apply for daycare assistance. Everyone I know is working really. It’s just fucked up. If I leave he will stand in the way, try to take the baby. If I leave while he’s at work, that’s fine but I really don’t have a stable place to even go. Then I gotta share custody. Who wants to leave their child in the environment where he’s not even being watched? He still puts little things in his mouth. He needs to be watched. Not looking at a phone only talking when he thinks the kid needs something.