Scared to leave 8 yr relationship…

Hi everyone. I am scared to leave my relationship after 8 years, 2 kids later.. but I feel like it’s best for us.

But because we have 2 kids, it isn’t easy for me. We have a 5 year old son and a 7 year old daughter.

We aren’t married…. I am not ready just yet to leave because I want to make sure I have some money saved up atleast and hopefully buy a car that can get me to work and home.

Because I know, when I end it he will take both cars ( under his name ).

I have a part time job. It is hard to find a full time job but luckily we live at my parents house so I have a bit of their support.

Anyways, it has nothing to do with cheating. But I realized I lost feelings. I dread having sex with him. Or even give him a kiss. When we do have sex, I can’t wait til it’s over.

When he’s gone to work, running errands, etc.. I feel peace.

I also feel like a single mom. He pays the bills but he thinks that’s enough. And yes we have had multiple talks about that…

I guess I’m just looking for support here. My son is so very attached to me. So I’m just crying thinking about the future when I won’t have him every day anymore.

It’s sad that this is my reality, but I feel like I’d rather end it soon rather than years from now.