Just venting…

I tested positive for Covid on Sunday night. I woke up Saturday not feeling great but I had to finish putting together a Christmas gift for my dad & grandma so I did that because I knew it had to be done. Then, my husband already had it planned for his friends to come over & watch the UFC fight. So later they came over & when his friends are here he really doesn’t pay attention to the kids it’s left to me. I get up with our 7 month old every night she wakes up for one feed. So I of course had to get up through the night although I wasn’t feeling good. Sunday I did take a nap but I chose to do it whenever my 7 month old took a nap. Otherwise, I folded laundry, vacuumed, mopped, cleaned up my boys’ room, swapped dishes around, and put up laundry. Monday I went to work because I had to no matter what (they don’t care if you have Covid) and I work alone in an office. It was miserable my head hurt, my body hurt, sore throat, etc. but I did push through. Same thing today just not as severe. Well my husband woke up with body aches & a sore throat. He came home & immediately takes a long bath and goes to sleep for the night. While I’m obviously not 100% and having a ranging headache I’m now left to tend to my baby all evening and two boys alone. They had poopy diapers, baby was screaming, dinner cooking, I still have to shower, and my house is a disaster. Currently, my boys are fighting over the TV and baby screaming while I’m finishing dinner. I’m just freaking done. How is it fair I have to push through all the freaking time & choose wisely whenever I want rest. I can’t just go do it because I have kids and life to still attend to. Meanwhile my husband decides to go to bed & leave everything up to me knowing I’m not 100% better. I’m just exhausted, upset, and super frustrated at the scenario. He took a covid test tonight & was negative which I’m sure it was just too early or not a good swab but idk I’m just venting & annoyed & done with it.