Why do I feel bad about this?

Every 4-6 months he loses a job and takes months to find another one and I’m tired of working two jobs & having to keep two jobs even when he does have a job bc I don’t feel that I can depend on or trust him to pull his load. Our daughter is in daycare m-f free of charge and I’m at work. He’s been lying to me about filling out job applications I downloaded the app he uses to talk to his friends to play games online and I’ve seen him making plans to play with them as soon as he wakes up and he’ll game all night long til 2/3 in the morning . On the weekends when my daughter isn’t at school and he has to watch her while I’m at work he tries to make her go back to sleep because he doesn’t want to get up at 8am and he’ll just give her his phone til he gets up then when he gets up he tries to get her to take a nap so he can play games with his friends. It feels like we don’t matter to him and he blames it on depression. I have to get on to him about taking showers and stuff. Today I was screaming at him because I’m fed up I’m tired of not being able to sleep in because he’s too lazy to get up and get our daughter dressed for school on my off day so I can sleep in a little. I’m ready to leave him i haven’t been happy in so long and the last time we had sex months ago I ended up pregnant and I’m regretting this pregnancy so much.