I don’t know what to do anymore

He got covid and I told him he had to quarantine and he went nuts. He has a house that his grandmother left him when she died and he goes to there whenever he wants to do his music or I guess get away from me and the kids. I asked him did he get Covid from work or carpooling his friend he tried to guilt trip me and say he got Covid from getting me and the kids gift at Walmart 😞 Like really dude but you’re my husband and this is what you say. I feel bad for making him quarantine a few days but I have multiple sclerosis and I can’t get sick like that. My husband is so abusive emotionally and mentally it’s overwhelming especially when I try to talk to him. It’s like I’m talking to the devil. He sees me shed a tear he looks in disgust like omg she’s crying like a big ass baby. I feel like if he can run over to that house he has when he wants to do “music” or whatever he does then he can go over there especially now! Covid is no joke and he can careless about me or our 3 kids well being at times and it hurts because he’s supposed to be our protector. Not to mention I already pay all the bills ..when I ask him can he help with a bill he says it’s my bills etc or he doesn’t have it or I make more money then him! plus my checks are getting garnished because he wrecked two cars that were in my name and the insurance cover and I couldn’t afford to make all the payments because I lost my job after he wrecked my cars I had no way to work the place was so far! He says things like how much are they garnishing so I can pay you back. Not damn baby I’m sorry I know I fucked up with that shit or I got you! He never has me! I just feel like I’m loosing it daily deep down inside ..: