My friend disgusts me?

Am I horrible for saying that? I can’t seem to push these feelings away. She repulses me so much it’s crazy. She defended an abusive therapist who sexually harassed patients because I thought of reporting she said “please don’t do that how would you like if someone literally made you lose your job. Don’t be the one stealing food from people’s mouth”. Like hello???? She deserves to get reported what? Stealing food from her mouth??? Let her continue abusing people? The fact that she’s even studying to be a lawyer makes me sad.

She also gives so many shit people many chances she has no self worth I swear. And that repulses me. She gave my other friend shit for cutting off a toxic possessive friend she told her “how would you feel if the same happened to you”. Also the fact that she defended that therapist is because she’s used to giving people chances. I’m sure it’s childhood trauma and not her fault since she has an absent father. So many people willing to treat her good and she goes straight to garbage people. She said she thought it was love when an ex gf assaulted her and force her to perform acts when she didn’t want.

She’s the type who wouldn’t report unethical behavior and turns a blind eye makes me wonder if she is that way herself. She’s even friends with her recent ex who treated her like absolute crap. Her friend who was with sugar daddies and slept with old men so she expected her to treat her like they used to treat her.

She never ever puts herself first, ever. It’s like how can I respect you if you don’t even respect yourself. She has so many health problems and still doesn’t care about her health and treats herself like crap. It’s hard to watch. I really think she needs treatment and I suggested that but she doesn’t seem to want to change she said she’ll change someday but she doesn’t.

At the same time she’s so nice to me and she cares so much about me and a good and fun friend. But I’m repulsed and disgusted and don’t know how to see her normally. It seems like she has no moral compass and that’s important to me.