Wanted a baby, no longer want a baby

It’s wild how quickly it can change. From the kids misbehaving all day every day (which is new) to the SO never being affectionate I realized I no longer want a baby. I don’t want to add to the stress. He takes it as a personal attack instead of working towards fixing the issue. Anyone got from baby fever to baby dread? Thankfully not pregnant, so I can track ovulation to avoid babies. I’m relieved but also really sad….