I just would love to hear your stories

I have 5 kids and not sure if I even want anymore kids. I had issues with my implant ( long story ) and got it removed. Me and my spouse have been together for 13 years and it’s hard to get busy. I had my period a week ago and had unprotected sex today. He doesn’t want me pregnant but it took 2 to get out of control. We currently live outside our town and he’s going to university so this is not the best situation. Any support anyone can give or advice would be good because I already know I’d love my kid. Just me being completely irresponsible has gotten a toll on me. Sorry I’m all over the place