Feelings aren’t there

Hi everyone♥️,

I just need to vent. ..So I’ve been with my boyfriend for 7 years and we have 3 kids together (6,5 and 1). He’s a great father to our kids and everything but my feelings has changed for him for him over the past 3 years. I got pregnant with our 3rd on accident and he broke up with me when I was 27 weeks pregnant but we got back together a month later. Another thing is I just graduated with my RN and I feel like he hasn’t matched up to my standards. He’s still at the same job since he was 18 and is comfortable. I’m glad he still has a job but ugh..grow! A couple is suppose to grow with each other and build this empire not have 1 person only grow. He’s understanding, caring, and loving but damn I don’t know. On another note is I’m mostly doing household stuff and changing our little one when she’s completely soiled, I mean clothes when it’s ready for bedtime while he’s laid in bed on his phone..TikTok,Snapchatting, YouTube…whatever. He’ll watch me take care of the kids and our dog until I ask for help. I don’t even want to have sex with him and I always make an excuse for him to not to. There’s no excitement in our relationship. I don’t feel that skip of heart beat when I see him anymore. I already feel like I’m doing everything by myself but I still have support from my parents to watch the kids when I’m out studying for my NCLEX. I don’t see myself marrying him and taking care of someone who doesn’t give 2 shits about their health because in a long run health issues will arise as he ages. (I had to really convince him to get an annual checkup and turns out he has a fatty liver (doesn’t drink) and is hypertensive and he just brushes it off). I don’t want to be a housewife who freaking cooks all the time when he comes home from work, take care of the kids, manages the household stuff cause I’ll have a hard job myself! I guess that’s his invision. I want teamwork! I just don’t know anymore honestly. Sorry if this post was a hot mess I was just typing as I go.