Has anyone been through this before?? My daughter is 16 months old and I LOVE being a mom! I live to take care of my baby girl and raise her to be loved and to be the best version of herself she can possibly be. I have gotten compliments even from her doctors that I should have more kids because it’s obvious that I was made for this! My problem is, I am SO afraid of being pregnant and having another traumatic birthing experience. I had an emergency c-section after a very difficult pregnancy and I lost too much blood and almost died from it due to having pre eclampsia that was never caught because my doctor did not care! My body went into shock afterwards and I had no control of my body. My blood pressure went all the way into the 200s and wouldn’t come down for a couple hours. I had to have transfusions and I was in the hospital much longer than I should have been because of the blood loss. I kept having panic attacks afterwards and had to be sedated 3 times while I was there because I could not calm down on my own. I had panic attacks driving past the hospital for the first year after she was born. Me and my husband both want to have another baby so badly but I am so afraid of having that experience again. (Also I am in my mid 20’s, so it’s not because I’m higher risk due to age, and I am relatively healthy.)

Does anyone have any advice they can offer or just anything to say that could help me decide what to do?