What’s happening

I avoid my partner like the plague.

Live together in my house have one child together (3year old).

Lost sex drive when pregnant and never really got it back.

I hate kissing him and sex is just so unappealing that I avoid it. He recently been ill and been sleeping on sofa so I’ve had the pleasure in sleeping next to my son without my partner pestering me or complaining.

I feel I hold a lot of resentment towards him and he has done a few questionable things that I am unable to thrash out with him as he turns any issue or concern into something else and I’m turned into the bad guy… the one that neglects him 🙄.

I have and still feel like I mother this grown man and since our child and the little support I resent having to wait on him for it never to be appreciated or he still wants more for example he says he sick of how miserable I am and he finds it hard to live with me being so miserable.!

Comments like this when he knows I been suffering with depression and anxiety and been asking him to do more makes me hate him and even less inclined to want to build our relationship back.

Other times I look at him (very rarely now) I think oh I do love you.