I need any advices that I can get

I understand that I shouldn't contradict myself. As a stay-at-home mom, I made the choice to prioritize taking care of my children because I love them and want to be there for their growth. Although my in laws offered to help me so that I could work, I declined since I'm not comfortable with the way they care for my babies. This has caused conflicts because I am not earning an income.

As a result, my husband's income is not sufficient to cover all our expenses, and I feel compelled to return to work. I have been actively searching for a job and expected this process to take some time, so I haven't informed my in-laws about it.

However, I recently received a job opportunity that requires me to start as soon as possible. I decided to accept it, but I haven't yet informed my in-laws that I will soon be working and relying on them to care for my kids.

I feel guilty about this situation. I don't like the idea of leaving my children in the care of my in-laws, whose methods I disagree with. I also feel bad for sharing this news with them at such a late stage, as I don't know how they will react. It saddens me that I am unable to solely take care of my kids. I would appreciate any advice you can offer.