Help??

Well this is all new for me. I was on birth control for many years of my life I'm currently 33 and definitely ready to have a baby. I stopped my birth control back in March and had a regular period up until the end of September. Now I have not had a period since the end of September and basically have taken a test every week for the past 6 weeks. I called my doctor and they sent me an estrogen pill to Kickstart my period but I'm hesitant on taking it....what if I actually am pregnant??! I took another test this morning and maybe my eyes are seeing something faintly but it's so hard to tell these stupid at home test and I didn't bother trying to photograph it to post since the past ones have been negative. As for my body not much has changed and I don't have any pain or any irregularities (minus no period) in fact my body feels like it's going through the regular cycles.

Should I just take the pill and start back from scratch or keep taking tests? I don't really want to run to the doctors for them to poke and prod at me to tell me that there's nothing wrong....