Hey y’all!

So my hubby and I have a 4yr old, and an 18 month old. We had gone back and forth on a third in the future for awhile and literally just decided to call it quits in terms of that.

I’ve literally had an IUD since my second was born… and somehow… I’m PREGNANT.

All is well/fine with baby thankfully, and (no judgement intended towards anyone by this) but termination isn’t something I could ever personally consider and have some deep trauma associated with this topic (long terrible story, no desire to share it haha) so please do not suggest that- thank you 💕I have always struggled to connect with my babies until after they’re born because I have horrific pregnancies.

My life as a mama has been incredibly difficult- my kids do NOT SLEEP. I have tried EVERYTHING. I’m still nursing my 18 month old who wakes hourly. I’ve tried all the supplements, sleep training, you name it I’ve tried it. My kids just need a lot of support at night to sleep.

My husband helps as much as he can but money is tight and he works 12-14 hours a day, 6-7 days a week to provide for the family. We don’t live nearby anyone else who could help. Im so miserable being pregnant again (24 weeks).

Im just really struggling to be happy about this. Truly, im very upset about it. And I feel bad because my husband is so so excited and happy about it. I don’t want to rob him of the joy, but I am not feeling any joy. Im feeling sick, im feeling exhausted beyond belief, im feeling constant pain, it hurts to eat or drink anything, it hurts to breathe (pregnancy sucks for my body lol) and I don’t know how to move forward with my mental health in one piece 😭 could really use some encouragement, advice, relating stories, etc. just feeling so alone and frustrated 😅

@casey- I expressly requested that topic not mentioned because of a really awful traumatic thing I’ve been through that pertains to that. You made it into a bid for women’s rights which isn’t something I ever mentioned. I appreciate your comment but please don’t turn this into some political crapfest. I would never end my child’s life, and after what I’ve been through, I additionally could never. If you had been through what I have, you would understand.