I’m getting married in like 3 weeks, my fiancé and I just got our rented house and we are moving furniture in with his brothers help currently. I’m leaving my home, I have so many worries about our marriage because my fiancé is sometimes co dependent with his mother who’s pretty toxic. I know every relationship has issues, I have a wonderful relationship and this is just something we have to work at. I am so stressed out about the wedding, moving (I’ve never moved before) and just how to deal with all these issues. I’ve never moved before ever, always lived with my parents and my aunt and brother until now. I’m trying to find another job because the wedding has been more expensive than I anticipated. I know I’m obviously more stressed than usual, but dang why am I questioning everything my fiancé does? He doesn’t even deserve that. It just feels like he doesn’t care anymore but I know he does. I feel so anxious all the time, the last three nights I’ve had panic attacks and it’s always been late at night so I can’t call anyone and I just have to cry myself to sleep at night. I’m holding off on starting birth control because I’m so scared about the possibility of anxiety and depression as a side effect and I can’t handle anymore of that. Yes I do think being stressed in my situation would be normal, but dang why can’t I even function? I don’t know what to do. I feel so lonely and it feels like I’m spiraling out of control.