How do you know if you have ppd? I’m a ftm & had my little guy 8 weeks ago. It was very rough for me In the beginning the first week I cried & didn’t know why. Fast forward things have gotten a bit better especially since I’m getting the hang of everything. Some nights like tonight my son will be really fussy & will cry & won’t want to go to sleep. He will literally scream & I have done everything I can think of for him. We will be up most of the night from him fighting his sleep. On these types of nights I cry, I get frustrated & I even look up things like “ I hate being a mom “ or “ I don’t want to be a mom anymore “ . I just get overwhelmed & I want to run away as far as I can sometimes. Then when we have better nights I feel bad & I feel guilty for feelings all of those things etc. so my question is how do you know when you have postpartum depression? Will everyday feel miserable when you have ppd? I’m also a single mom. No help from my child’s father at all. My only help is from my mom she’s an angel & keeps him every now & then. Tonight I’m struggling & need to someone to relate to.