Update on I’m so broken

I feel like I’m just not being heard and I’m honestly exhausted. After many times of us having conversations about my lack of sex drive especially after kids and antidepressants and him telling me he’s not putting effort in other aspects of our relationship if I don’t have sex once a week he just now keeps buying my lingerie. I want to want sex, I want so badly to have energy and not want to cry. I have a doctors apt next week to discuss lack of libido. But I don’t know what to do, when another lingerie package arrived today I feel invisible.

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I’m 36 years old and married for 10 years. We have two kids and I suffer from perinatal as well as postpartum depression. I’ve been taking antidepressants for 5 years.

I do not want sex. I don’t crave it or get turned on anymore :( I try to keep my husband satisfied but he always wants more sex or more foreplay or wants me to dress up.

I literally just suck it up and have sex but afterwards I either want to cry or feel so gross? I don’t know how to explain it. What is wrong with me? I feel so bad.