I sh*t myself and it was the most painful thing ever

I honestly believe now my antidepressant is doing this to me I just looked it up and this is a side affect.

So I have been having diarrhea but not thAT bad, it will stop and then come back. Don’t know what’s going on.

Today I got the worst pain ever when I got up to walk to the living room, like someone had ran up and shoved a knife up my ass, it was freaking excruciating and I started shitting myself and screaming. I couldn’t move for a second because of the pain, it had me on my top toes! I then ran.. and waddled to the bathroom and finished there… started sobbing and then got in the shower and washed myself while still sobbing.

Then I had to get out and scrub the floor and the toilet it was a literal fucking explosion. I just cannot believe this happened to me this was very extreme. I needed to tell someone.. idk hopefully someone has a similar story and can help me feel better because I’m telling my doctor what happened even though it’s mortifying. It says online when you look up the side affects of the medication to speak to your doctor if you’re having diarrhea. In this case incredibly painful uncontrollable diarrhea.