I am 17 years old and my life feels terrible. I used to be a good student but now i can hardly put in any effort and have to feel the dissapointment of those around me. I lie to them and say im doing okay in classes because im scared of their reaction then they find out and i feel horrible. I can barely bathe myself and shower once a week at most and i dont take care of my hair or brush my teeth even though i want to. Every time i try, i end up giving up really quickly. I am obese abd borderline diabetic. As much as i want to exorcise or start a diet, i cant stick to it. Nobody at school likes me and i cant seem to keep friends very long because im considered obnoxious or loud. I want to change but i cant find the motivation to put my phone down. My life is spiraling out of control and im afraid of the future.