In pain

I never knew if i would be a mom. Then i found out i was pregnant and i was prepared to do anything and everything for my baby. Now i might be losing them. And it feels like i lost part of my self. I was experiencing craving. And chest tenderness. I felt pregnant and i couldnt wait to hear their little heart beat. See them grow inside me. Now its all gone. And i feel and emptiness thats more then anythibg i have ever felt before. I wanted to be a mom. I wanted to show them love. I wanted to watch my belly grow. Do a gender reveal. And meet them and i never will. Its an unimaginable pain and loss and numbness. I feel i will never be able to concive.