I went through an early miscarriage in Late March, broke up with my ex, and I'm just sad and lonely. My 20th birthday is tomorrow and I only have a singular friend who's a guy. I just dont really know how to move forward with my life and grieve (not forget but remember without it burning). The situation was messy and he never acknowledged I was pregnant, said I couldnt possibly be and didnt acknowledge the miscarriage. Said he'd take a baby from me because I'm mental. I honestly havent really talked about this, I think im ashamed. I got pregnant by someone I shouldnt have, stayed in a relationship I shouldnt have, got pregnant when I shouldnt have, and lost the baby as soon as I found out and I just feel wrong. Like I couldn't do the one thing that was supposed to come naturally. I shouldve just stayed quiet and played happy a little longer. Sorry it's a long rant.