He said he wasn’t ready for a relationship

He would fall asleep in my arms. I would run my fingers through his hair, kiss his forehead as he used me as a pillow. While he held me so tight and so sweetly. He told me things you don’t just say to say to anyone. He spoke to me in a way you speak to someone who you love more than anything else. We weren’t together, but we sure as shit acted like it. And he kissed me. Held me like I was the entire world under his fingertips. Kissed me like he had been starved of pure love. And I know his intentions were always pure. He is the biggest softie. He always has been and everyone knows it. But then he said he freaked himself out and realized he may not be ready for a relationship. I’m shattered. What does this mean? I don’t want to lose him. I saw something there. I wanted a chance. What do I do now..