I have been with my partner for 3 years and we have a son together

I am 42 and he is 44, we have kids from previous marriage

Despite him not wanting our son in the first place, and telling me he would leave me if I kept the baby & telling me ‘this is not the life he wanted’

He refuses to get the snip

We have been having sex but avoiding that time

Of month and will either not have sex or just oral

One night we were having sex and I told him not

To come in me as I am in my danger zone, he refused and said I either give him a BJ or he will cum in me, I told him a few times no don’t finish in me, why can’t u just finish outside of me but he didn’t

He knows I’m super fertile too so I am sure he knew there would be a high possibility

I would say I have seen some controlling behaviour from him but I wouldn’t say he is completely controlling as I can do and go where I want

I am pregnant and I was talking to a councillor and she said to me that what he did is classed as sexual assault, he did something against your will and now you have to make a decision on what you want to do

Time is ticking as I am 9weeks, I have never been against abortion and believe every women has the right to choose but I am now in a position in which I feel that is something I would never or never have to do! But thinking about having another baby with him and knowing that I am the one that will have to do all the work, just mentally I don’t know if I could do it.. I’m not young anymore and I need to focus on myself and my boy… but guilt keeps setting in also

Anyway thank u for listening and would appreciate any feedback or advice