Nervous as fuck

So I got a faint positive pregnancy test 2 days in a row.. I have had a few miscarriages and I am so nervous… it hasn’t quite sunk in yet… I am still before my missed period so I don’t know for sure… idk I am just very nervous and I don’t want to get my hopes up just for something to happen again… I know each pregnancy is different and that everything will work out the way it is supposed to.. My heart was completely broken after the last one… I was so excited about it that I almost feel like it would be a betrayal to get excited about this one… but then this one deserves just as much love and excitement as I had for the other baby…. I’m a mess right now… I am still not fully believing that I am pregnant but I definitely feel pregnant and the tests said I was I just don’t know what to think or how to feel right now….