10w postpartum & breastfeeding / pumping feeling UGLY AF

Hey, so my baby 10 weeks old & im feeling fat n ugly i lost basically all the baby weight minus 10 LBs but i was “fat “ to start . I wasn’t really feeling my looks before I got pregnant, im now feeding my baby & I worry about killing my milk supply of if I diet .

Im 5’9” 230 LBs

When I was younger I was 115 (I’ve always struggled with self image)

I was wondering about diets that won’t hurt my milk supply, or should I just wait until I stop feeding my baby ?

This is me currently (that’s my bathing suit )

Going to a pool and beach has given me a complex & I need better suggestions for nursing bras because the no support is making my boobies look so sad n I think that’s affecting me also .