Need to vent.

Me and my partner of almost 8 years got into an heated argument yesterday over text, he made a comment and called me “ obese “ which okay it’s true I am over weight I get it. But that’s something he’s known I struggled with my whole teenage to adult years. Before pregnancy I was 40lbs down and exercising and doing the whole calorie watch and all, so I felt great. But being 15 weeks I’ve gained 18lbs…

I stopped working out, stopped tracking my calories and it’s gotten to the point where I emotionally eat…

After the argument he tells me how he wants me and how he would touch on me, but that lately I’ve been ugh and tbh he’s been doing the opposite & than ever since he made that comment I can’t get it out my head. I feel so much insecure, I feel so hopeless.

None of my clothes fit me any more, I hardly am able to dress up. I just feel so ugly, so disgusting with my self…as I’m typing this I’m crying…some people don’t realize how much words really do hurt & this hurts me because it’s something I’ve struggled with…

He tried to make up by having sex but honestly it doesn’t make me feel any better, I don’t want to tell him how I’ve been feeling just for him to make me feel like “ it’s nothing or he didn’t mean it “.

I’ve been struggling mentally with this, I feel guilty just eating but than I want to eat to eat my emotions away…

It’s so hard…