I just need to vent a little today..

I go for my C-section the day after tomorrow, and I've been scrambling to have things in order for when I come home (it will be my 3rd), and I am so overwhelmed.

I have been scrambling EVERY DAY to make sure floors have been swept/mopped, laundry has been kept up, rugs have been shampooed,etc. for weeks in case I did go into labor before my C-section and today I'm so overwhelmed and tired and I just want to cry.

My husband tries to help here and there but he has to work and he doesn't understand the load I have to deal with (even though it's our THIRD kid). He did help me cut the grass and he put the stuff in the car for the hospital, but I've been the one cleaning and doing everything else.

I packed my bag, the kids bag, the diaper bag, AND his bag. Cleaned the car seat (since it was used for our 2nd baby and is still in date), cleaned the car, etc. And I'm overwhelmed because on top of having done all of that, instead of is just going to buy groceries a few days ago when he got paid (which he wanted to save money because he gets paid on the day I'll be discharged) he just said we will get them then and told me "you can make an pickup order and we will go get them and whatever you need" (postpartum underwear and baby formula).

He didn't take into consideration that while in the hospital I don't want to sit on my phone and meal plan while trying to recover from being cut open, i can barely even move after. I know he means well and doesn't understand but today I broke down because I just feel like so much is on me right now.