Gender Disappointment… Again… 😔

This is my 4th boy now… Granted, 2 are my step sons (whose lives I’ve been in since infancy), then I had my first biological son in 2018. At 20 weeks, we were told he was a girl but found out at 27 weeks, he was actually a boy. I was crushed. I vowed I’d never go based off an ultrasound again. In 2021 we suffered through a miscarriage. Now this time, I was sure it was a girl. The symptoms were so different then with my first. The genetic testing came back today and I’m having another boy… 😔 I’m so disappointed.

None of my kids were planned. And honestly, after the miscarriage, I didn’t want anymore children. We took active measures to prevent pregnancy. But it happened. I wasn’t disappointed or upset.

I deal with fertility issues so I should just be happy to carry a baby. But it’s because of those same issues and my lack of desire to have more children, that I’m so upset. I wanted a girl. I’ve ALWAYS wanted a girl… Especially when there’s that chance I’ll never have another baby… 😞

I know I’ll love my baby when he’s born regardless, but in this moment, I’m terribly disappointed. I know the feelings are temporary. I know all this. But I just need someone to understand and care about how I feel. I have no support system and no one I know understands how I’m feeling… I could use some emotional and mental support… 😔💔