Now I don’t know…

My boyfriend broke up with me last week. He told me he felt trapped and that me not trusting him was frustrating him. (I have valid reasons to not trust him). While he was out I was at home with our newborn crying freaking out figuring everything out since we live together. He came home and we talked in the morning and he said to forget the break up that he felt stressed about money, having a newborn and felt like he was in jail since obviously I just had a baby and wasn’t ready to do anything and expected him to be with me. The point is now idk how I feel about being with him after he broke up with me. He yelled at me and said really mean things. And it isn’t the first time he says he’s tired of me. I feel so confused.