I decided to leave months ago, really…but I finally did it this morning. I did not specifically give details about my leaving, but he knows why I chose to leave.

Backstory being a 12 year relationship starting when I was 26, and he was 35. We have lived together for 11 years. He asked me to marry him after many discussions about what we wanted in life, and he has put it off for almost 8 years now. We set 4 dates over the years and he’s backed out on every one of them. He has been back and forth about how much he loves me and we are life partners, to he’s unhappy and wants to better our relationship before getting married, to how happy I make him and how he can’t see himself without me. It’s the lying and the back and forth BS for me at this point, so it’s not even just the fact that he hasn’t married me after almost 12 years together. He’s told me for years he wanted me to be his wife. He planned a romantic trip just for propose to me and never follow through, and I think about it every day.

I’m trying to be positive and know deep down this has to be a blessing in disguise. He is not taking this very well and keeps crying saying he will marry me and make it right, that he doesn’t want to be without me, but I’m just so full of resentment and anger now. I’ve done this to myself and I need some serious therapy..