After 2 miscarriages this year

Getting a positive test isn’t exciting anymore. My husband and I both cried out of fear rather than excitement or enjoyment. Each loss has been so traumatic. We had a miscarriage in February this year, conceived again right after in March, then miscarried that one at the end of April and had a d&c the first of May. We weren’t trying for this one. I want to be excited but I also don’t believe these positives tests will result in a baby. It’s still early, my period is still 4-5 days away which only makes me more anxious that this will end up as another loss.