Happy and sad all at the same time

Faithy

So I’m going to be an aunt yay! I am as excited as I am internally bummed. I kept saying I better have a baby before my little sister (5 years younger than me). Welp that didn’t happen. She got this new bf, they have been togeather for less than 6 months. She just told me she is pregnant. While I’m sitting here 8 months TTC with nothing… I’m a roller coaster of emotions. None of the family knows we have been TTC because I wanted it to be a huge suprise when it finally happens. What really hit me was she said “I was waiting for you to have a kid first but you were taking too long and I do t want to be an old mom” (she is tuning 21 this month and I’m 26) I just wanted to say right there that we have been trying with no luck but my bf and I have agreed not to tell family anything yet about our journey. I guess I’m just looking for words of encouragement. I’m totally stoked for her but it’s making me feel like so

Thing is wrong with me at the same time