I am starting to panic. I love my baby. More than anything, but I am absolutely terrified. I have absolutely no fucking clue what I’m doing. I have had so much going on in life that I didn’t read a single book or anything about being a mom. I’ve taken care of my baby siblings when they were little, but I’ve never done anything like this before. I am so scared. What if I am just an awful mom. What if I don’t take care of him properly. I just want to cry.

And before I get hate for getting pregnant when I wasn’t ready, I was on the pill.