I found out I was cheated on February 2024, found out Monday.

Since May I’ve been living with him, we were long distance for 3 years. But I’m back at my mom’s getting the space I need. We have a 5 month old, who is with dad right now. I gave up my apartment to be with him and moved into his new house that’s being provided from his job. Just this past month we got new trucks for our family (we have 2 kids each from previous relationships, so 5 kids all together lol. 1 of his kids lives full time with mom, he has the other. 1 of mine stay with my mom bcuz he prefers being with his family than way over there).

Anyway, I feel like I have to stay bcuz of everything we got for our family. The house, the trucks. But those are materialistic things right? Not enough of a reason to stay in a relationship like that? I love him.. I really do. But it’s different now. I still can’t bare the thought of him with someone else. Even if I don’t get back with him.. I think about “who’s he talking to now” “who’s he dating now” “who is he gonna bring in our new trucks, who’s gonna be in our bed”. He cheated in a hotel out of town. lol. fml. I’m 25 & he’s 29.

I love the father he is to our son. I love seeing them together. I loved us being together…