9dpo and negative 😕

I know, I know, I know. 9dpo is still early but I got another bfn this morning. After more than a year of actively TTC- that’s already after being off birth control and not preventing pregnancy for close to a year before that, countless doctors appointments saying everything seems “normal”, and discussing starting IUI with my doctor in another cycle or two, I’m just exhausted and feeling hopeless. Feeling like there’s no point in testing anymore because I know my period will be here in another few days anyway.