My mother passed away yesterday. We haven’t spoken in about 2 years over a lie my sister told against me. My mother died thinking I was a bad person when in reality she was lied to. I was robbed to say good bye. No one told me she was in the hospital. No one told me of her condition. They all turned their back on me and I didn’t deserve it. Now I’m scared that no one will inform me of her services.

My mother never even knew I’m pregnant right now. I feel like such an outsider in this family. I’ll never be able to reconnect with her or have her know the truth and that hurts me so damn bad. How do I let go of this anger? How do I settle these awful feelings?