(Please this is only a worry and would like opinions. No attacking or etc. I mean no way to offend or insult anyone)

Recently my partner and I have been talking about our future together…one of the few worries that hasn’t left my mind is having kids. I grew up diagnosed with autism (on the spectrum), it wasn’t an easy feat for my parents especially my mom. While I understand the spectrum can range and differ in function or more. I always been told that I’m exceptional in what I do as a person and that I can do anything if I put my mind to it. And I did. I also grew up in a culture where anything related to ADHD or Autism isn’t really taken seriously or deny. My dad tried endlessly to prove that I never had autism in the first place. The struggles were my self-esteem, bullying, and multiple identity crisis in who I am as a person and my culture. While I ended up getting to where I want to be, graduated college, found love, and became a full time teacher…it doesn’t mean I don’t have any concerns of the likely chances of having children with autism and feeling that I’M responsible for “giving” it to them. I really want to have children but I don’t want to put my own child through so much especially what I had to go through and it came with so much emotional and mental damage/trauma. Is it valid on how I feel??? My partner says we can do it and he wants to have children with me no matter what but I’m feeling extremely mixed and conflicted and worry it could even affect how I handle before and after pregnancy.