I’m scared my boyfriend and I argue too much, it’s like once every other week. My boyfriend has a tendency to talk about our problems (money problems mostly) or voice them when we’re in public and usually takes it a step too far and I have really bad anxiety, I have also had an abusive childhood where whenever I’m yelled at or embarrassed in public I feel exactly how I felt when I was a little girl and it overwhelms me so much, I’ve gotten better at holding back any tears but today I just couldn’t. I think it might also be because I’ve been feeling really low (I was also stood up by a friend last night after setting up a little wine tasting date for us girls) so just a bad mix of unhappy emotions already, anyway, I asked my boyfriend if we could have a coffee date and he took us, paid for lunch and coffee, I said thank you and I’ll get the next date. Then we were sat down and chatting and I asked him if he’d want to go somewhere for a “weekend staycation” in December (there’s a place I wanna go to that has really nice Christmas stalls) and I guess I was speaking quietly but he just exclaims like “omg speak up you always speak so quietly!” And this embarrasses me a little so I move closer to him and I repeat myself and he’s like “why do you want to go there? Why? Why” like not giving me a chance to answer him and he’s borderline raising his voice at this point and I’m feeling *not great at all* then he exclaims again “fucking hell!” And immediately my eyes start watering and before I know it I’m crying and the fact that we are in public makes me feel 100x worse. I told him I want to leave and in the car he apologises and agrees that he went to far with swearing at me but I told him it’s always like this, it’s always in public, he was being too loud and felt aggressive to me and he said that he thinks he was valid in asking me why I wanted to go to this specific place and I told him, if he shut up for just a second to let me speak I would’ve told him but it feels like he does this every time, gets all up in arms over nothing. Am I too emotional?