I hate saying this and I say it often, I really don’t like it. I didn’t with my first child but with this baby, its sooo much more difficult.

I had a mass oversupply with my first baby that I donated 1500 oz of milk and this time I feel like it’s worse.

Baby girl is 10 weeks old, and I’m still not regulated yet. When I pump I get 10-16 oz combined, so I know at her feedings she’s typically taking 4-6 oz and she is literally never satisfied. My son would nurse for like 10 minutes and fall of soooo milk drunk. Baby girl has never fallen asleep at the breast and will eat and eat and eat until I literally have to pull her off because she has been on for so long and her belly will be so hard and full. My boob will be so flat and empty feeling and she is still seeming like she’s swallowing (obviously I’m sure it’s hind milk but if I don’t take her off she will be on all day).

Her diapers are so freaking full every time; and she sleeps 12 hour stretches at night so we all know she is getting plenty.

When she was 6 weeks old I called an LC because of my oversupply; I bought a deep freezer and completely filled it in two weeks. I needed to dry up, but everytime I tried, baby would clusterfeed and bring it all back. She diagnosed her with foremilk hindmilk imbalance; which caused a ton of gas and belly upset and she clusterfed because she would get full on foremilk, it digested so fast and she would never stay full because she could never get to the hind milk.

Anyway she had me block feed for a few days which did help, but it’s literally all back again.

I have to pump before bed every night so I can sleep from 12-8am and not be so uncomfortable but recently I’ve been trying to decrease the time pumped. As I have done that, I literally feel like sometimes I’m waking up with MORE milk. I woke up this morning so engorged, once she drained them they have still felt bruised all day.

I hate saying that I hate breastfeeding because I’m able to feed her myself and have a ton of room for error (what it feels like). But my whole life revolves around milk, breastfeeding, milk supply, pumping, avoiding mastitis etc. I also have breastfeeding aversion which also doesn’t help. I know this is just a season, but a girl has to vent sometimes. Anyone else having problems with nursing still? I thought it’d be better by now.🥴