My parents of course love me and my boyfriend, but no one else does.

I’m mean and selfish and most of it stems from insecurity and social anxiety. Maybe I’m autistic. I don’t know. I act stand off ish, I’m always complaining. I’m always overwhelmed and stressed out.

All I know is that I want to become a better person. But if I have a mental illness I’m scared it’ll never get better and I’ll never change.