TTC blues

I am 38, I have been struggling with secondary infertility for 7 years. I have tried all the teas, fertility doctors, failed IUI’s and IVF. It feels like a gut punch every time I see my monthly cycle.

It feels like I am a the most qualified person for the job and after the interview they give it someone who never applied for the job with zero experience in the field. I have never felt so disconnected as a woman and like a failure. I am hurt beyond repair. I am looking for a boost in faith or a way to release this pain, so that I can move forward in life.