Torn on what to do if its real

I’m still waiting for my cycle to find out but I’m anxious. I just wanted to know if anyone has kept a baby and they’re not with the dad cause he’s abusive?

I’ve been wanting another baby for so long so I’m unsure especially since I wanted to go back to school. Depending on how next week goes I’ll have to change my plans. I’m unsure as the father has been mean to me and has never supported or taken care of me financially. I’ve already gone through an abortion and I don’t want to again but please anyone who has any experience on this help me out 😓❤️