I feel so heartbroken

I have 2 beautiful kids already ( boy & girl)

Ages 6 & 5 and I’m 19w1d & Friday I went in by myself was told my baby has no heartbeat ..

This is something I never imagined going through … I had miscarriages (less than 2 months) but this one just hurts so much… I’m non stop off & on crying like I still have a baby that’s dead inside of me!! I have to wait till tomorrow for my phone appointment with my doctor to make a decision on what to do with baby .

I either

Wait for baby to come out (highly not recommended)

Get induced & get to hold baby & find out what happened with baby

Or get a procedure done and have baby evacuated ..

i saw a picture on how they do it & it scares the hell out of me , it’s sad how they do it & this is all just heartbreaking like what did I do wrong!! My test results were all negative I don’t understand did I eat something , was I stressing idk :(

How do you keep pushing from this