Venting 🥹😖😔

10 dpo (yesterday ) I took a test it was negative that was the first test I took this cycle I’m still having twinges and pricks in my lower stomach my boobs are kinda sore I never get sore boobs and I’m a lil emotionally it’s crazy because me and my husband are not ready for another kid we have two beautiful baby girls and they mean the world to us but financially and emotionally for the both of us not right now but I can’t get this lil thought of what if what if we do have another kid I would be so happy but at the same time NOT RIGHT NOW hhhhhhh idk am I being unreasonable,selfish,crazy what!