Ever since my mc I’ve had some ptsd, or at least I think it might be, specifically when I’m doing anything medical related. My mc experience was really traumatic, as is anyone else’s, but I think being in a hospital where I don’t speak the language having to have people translate for me while I was being touched by a male doctor and at one point passed out because I don’t do well with blood really did me in. It’s so bad that I can’t go to the doctor for anything without wanting to cry. For example I went for my physical exam, which I put off for so long, and even tho it’s just a routine exam I bawled my eyes out when I got in my car. Another time I got my wisdom teeth taken out and when I woke up from the anesthesia I cried because my last memory was the dentist trying to find a vein and it reminded me of the nurse who struggled to find a vein when I had my mc because I was so dehydrated from crying. It’s gotten so bad I feel anxious watching greys anatomy even tho I’ve seen it already. It makes me feel like a big cry baby which I know my feelings are valid but still. Sometimes it’s not easy to think rationally. Sometimes I just cry and hyperventilate.