Excited feeling to leave abuser?

Has anyone ever been excited to leave a narcissist before? Me and my ex boyfriend of roughly 6 years ended it again, we’ve done this multiple times over the years but I think now it’s for good. It has to be for my mental health and my future at this point, my family nor my friends want me to be with him and believe I do deserve better. I posted on this app anonymously before asking for advice, and almost every one of you guys have told me that he is abusive and I need to leave. I’ve had this account since I was 18.

Over the years he’s made me feel like I was the problem, and when I believed that and turned my act around; my attitude towards him, and receiving mental heath treatment over the summer, I realize nothing was ever going to change on his part. He will always be a narcissistic, abuser.

I feel excited in the sense that I get to experience new people, I’m in a better mindset than I was the last time we broke up. I don’t have to be judged on every single thing I do or say, I can hang out with whoever I want now (This all started over a concert im going to in March with my friends & their bfs) and I don’t have to deal with an insecure jealous partner. I’m going to be 26 in April and really had to think about if this is what I want to deal with for the rest of my life?

If I want children will this really be the man to nature my children when I’m not around? My GUT instinct told me, absolutely not. We could never agree on even the simplest things like what our wedding day would look like. To the point where I was thinking I probably am never going to marry this man, so this all seems pointless, but I would still go back because it was my source of comfort and what I was used to since I was 19 years old.