did I do something wrong and will my boss hate me?
at work, I have lot of emergency requests, my boss would call me in unscheduled/impromptu meetings, my staff would ask me questions, there is a high volume of projects and I have no time to work on them because I have meetings scheduled back to back. all the while, they still expect the projects to get done. not only that, I have been going through a lot outside of work because I have been nauseous eating food and nauseous in the mornings. I also have severe social anxiety. when I was was sick/nauseous and everything under the sun was happening at work, I got overwhelmed. I tried to schedule a meeting to review the projects with my boss, but when I hopped on the call, my voice was shaking and I was strongly saying that "we need some push back on projects because it is too much" and "we cannot take anymore projects." he would go over each project and tried to let me know that we could tell one team to work on the ticket for next sprint to push back. but he looked at the projects on hold and said there was a long list -- he said "I understand why you are overwhelmed, there is a long list of hold items here that need to be closed out." I responded "these tickets are awaiting client feedback. BUT what I was concerned about was the number of tickets that are currently work in progress. there are too many new requests coming in and we cannot take anymore requests." he got impatient with my shaking voice from being so nervous (my tone might have come off overwhelmed). he asked me if I feel better with the workload after going through the list again and said "umm I think so as long as we don't take on anymore requests." then he said in a sarcastic manner, I hope you feel better! because he knows I have an illness. do you think I did wrong and he hates me now? after the call, I did apologize and he told me it's no worries and that he met with the big boss to push back on requests and to take care.
Achieve your health goals from period to parenting.