I have a wonderful man in my life and somedays I question myself!! What is it about me that you like? Will you stay with me or hurt me? Will you let me in or shut me out?  I'm terrified of the answers to these questions! I have plenty more to come they just haven't crossed my mind yet! I want to understand you and you to do the same yet I'm so easy and your so hard, but that just shows what you've been through compared to myself. Majority of the time I feel that I'm annoying you, that I'm too clingy but to be honest it's only because I want the best for us. Wether it's going to work out or the flame will eventually go out. I only wish you'd just let me in a little more than you do now. I will love you for ever but will you do the same. I was in tiers when we were texting earlier but you don't know that  because you don't do feelings, I think it's because your afraid of your own because you've been hurt so badly by other girls especially by the last two. I think if only you had known me earlier you wouldn't be hurting as much as you are. I want to be your all because your my all. I messaged you saying "If only you could see yourself through my eyes then you'd see just how much I love you" 

Please some one give me advice with what I do???!!  Do I just not message him to see if he will message me or do I message him first! So many questions unanswered but they will be answered one day!